Kiss me in the futuristic

rosenator @ 2005-03-24T22:35:00

2005-03-25T03:37:25Z

I feel gross
I feel ugly
I feel like i just want to tear myself apart.
What is wrong with me?
Why dont I just have some fucking control?
I can't bear to look at myself anymore.
I feel like im slowly,
but surely,
falling
apart.
Why am i doing this to myself.
Believing in things that fail
Chasing after a lost purpose.
How could I have been so oblivious?
I retrace my steps trying to figure it all out.
I'm too stupid, too undeniably dumb
to hold my fucking life together.
I know its not the end
although I kinda wish it was.
Its not my fault
but i want to blame myself.
I guess
I just wasnt good enough...
again.
I love too easily
i fall for the worst tricks in the book.
and then crash down, without any warning.
Why cant i fucking pull myself together
What a fucking idiot I am
I'm withering away
Please, God, make this go away.
I care too much.
I feel too much.
What is the fucking point?

this is what happens when you get bored over spring break.

2005-03-23T23:00:10Z

Are you...
[x] ugly
[ ] pretty
[x] ok
[x] bored
[x] happy
[x..kinda.] bilingual
[x] white
[ ] black
[ ] mexican
[ ] asian
[ ] brown
[x] short
[ ] tall
[ ] grounded
[ ] sick
[x] lazy
[ ] single
[x] taken
[ ] looking
[ ] not really looking
[ ] not really thinking about the fact you're single
[x] tired
[x] sleepy
[x] annoyed
[ ] hungry
[ ] thirsty

Do you...
[x] Have a bf
[ ] have a gf
[ ] involve yourself in a 'fling' (i.e. not really bf / gf)
[x] have a crush
[x] feel loved
[ ] feel lonely
[x...sometimes] hate yourself
[ ] think you're at'ractive
[ ] have a dog
[x] have your own room
[x] paint your nails
[ ] play an instrument
[x] wear black eyeliner-
[x] like the color blue
[x] like the color yellow
[x] like to write
[ ] have a laptop
[x] have a desktop
[x] miss someone right now

X everything that you remember, or that applies to you
Sesame Street X
Lamb Chops X<--great show.
The Muppets X
Arthur X<--brilliant.
E.T. X
Roger's Imagination
Pokemon X
Hey Arnold! X<---best show ever.
Land Before Time X
I saw Lion King when it was in the theaters X
I saw Jurassic Park when it was in the theaters
Kurt Cobain's death <--I actually dont remeber it..but i know about it.
Grunge <<--again, i dotn rellly rember it
Titanic rocked my socks X
Britney Spear's break from the biz X
I loved the Spice Girls XXXXX wow i was obsessed back in the day.
Gettin Jiggy With It X
My Heart Will Go On [Titanic Love Song] X
This Is How We Do It X
Macarena X
Genie In A Bottle X
Smells Like Teen Spirit <--dont really rember it (was into pop back in the day)
Under The Bridge <--dont remeber it but LOVE THE ALBUM NOW!
Gangsta's Paradise
I own the Backstreet Boys CD X
I own the N'Sync CD X
Britney Spears was my favorite singer at one point during the 90s X
The Matrix is one of my favorite movies of all time X

[x]i like starburst
[x]i like ANY kind of candy
[x]i watch AMERiCAN iDOL
[x]i have a boyfriend
[ ]i have a girlfriend
[x]i love them with all my heart
[x..ish?]ive been with them for a while now..
[x]i like pink
[x..sure.]its GaNGSTa
[x..sometimes.]i think PiNK N BLACK is sexxxyy
[x]i have an Mp3 player
[x]i have an iPOD
[ ]i have a MiNi iPOD
[x]ive watched Napolean Dynamite
[x]i thot it was as funny as HeLL
[x]i like soda
[x]i know you want my go0dies..
[automatic supersonic hypnotic FUNKY FRESH.]i can do the 1 2 step better than CiARA
[x]i like HERSHEYS KiSSES
[x]they are ThE BoMB
[x]im wearing pants right now.
[sometimes]i HATE school
[x]i have a lot of friends
[ ]i have a bad reputation
[x]i have siblings
[sometimes]i dont like them
[x]i have a cellphone
[yeah i had to pay for mine..stupid parents.]im sooo glad i dont have to pay for it
[x]i text people ALL the time
[x]i am addicted to the internet
[ ]i bagg my pants (yeah im soo gansta)
[x principals yes..some of my teachers no]i think my principal/teachers are GAY and should rot in hell
[x]i am AGAiNST homework
[ ]i am FORCED to go to summer school
[x]i actualy WANT to go to summer school
[???]i have been on iNVERTiGO at PgA
[ ]it was AWESOME!!!
[x]im getting tired of putting in X's
[x]but im gonna keep going anyway
[ ]im Christian
[ ]i go to church EVERY sunday (or at least TRY to)
[x]i hate door-to-door sellers
[x]i like getting phone calls and notes..
[ ]i play an instrument
[ ]i HATE "family" gatherings
[ ]except for Christmas
[x]i LOVE my friends.
[haha other way around.]ive broken someones HeART
[x]my heart has been broken
[ ]i like wearing skirts
[x]i like the beach
[ ]i LOVE roller coasters
[??]ive been on DRoP ZoNE
[ ]i cut myself
[ ]i used to cut myself
[ ]ive thot about cutting myself
[x..sometimes.]i act happy but im really not
[x]i like Greenday
[x]i am soo random
[x]i like to dance
[x]i like to sing
[x]ive been in a show of somekind
[x]i know what a "library" is
[x]i have a library card
[ ]i actually use it
[x]stupid people annoy me
[x...yeah but i mean if its what they like, you cant hate them for that.]i HATE people who wear LiNKiN PARK wristbands and label themselves "PUNK ROCKERS"
[x..yes but i shop there for the band tees.]hot topic is gay now-a-days
[x]its all about NERD TOPiC
[x]i like going to the mall with my friends
[x..but i love them anyway]my parents are embarrasing
[x]im glad this is over now.

~(*) Love Survey (*)~

<3 What was the age of your first kiss?: 12
<3 Who was your first boyfriend/ girlfriend?: Ben..
<3 Are you straight, bi, or gay?: straight
<3 Have you ever been in love?: yeah....
<3 Are you currently single or taken?: taken
<3 If you have a boyfriend/ girlfriend, how long have you been going out?: since like middle of feb? somethign like that lol.
<3 If you are single, do you have a crush? :
<3 What is your dream guy/ girl's personality?: funny, caring, sensitve (but not too much), silly, gooselike, good music tastes, smart..thus..PETER<33 lol
<3 Their looks?: SEXUAL HAIR, tall, perty eyes..:-D
<3 What is the most romantic thing anyone has ever done to you?: written me a poem <3333
<3 Describe the worst date you've ever been on: uhhh..?
<3 Have you ever had sex?: no
<3 Do you want to get married?: yess..someday!
<3 Where would you want your wedding to be?: somewhere nice..
<3 Do you want to have kids? : yeah
<3 If so, what would their names be?: girl-Astrid Boy-Omar
<3 Have you ever written a love letter?: nopers.
<3 Have you ever recieved a love letter?: hahahaha
<3 Have you ever experienced love at first sight?: ish?

I AM:: SEXY
I WANT:: TO RESIDE IN YOUR PANTS
I HAVE:: boobs
I WISH:: i didnt have to graduate this year.
I HATE:: U2, Matchbox 20, and your mom
I MISS:: rebecca :-(
I FEAR:: rollar coasters
I HEAR:: my brother playing the ukelele..dont ask.
I SEARCH:: for the meaning of life....im deep.
I WONDER:: why i had to change
I REGRET:: sometimes being a bitch
I LOVE:: Peter!
I ACHE:: for your body.
I ALWAYS:: am singing.
I AM NOT:: perty
I DANCE:: ALL THE TIME BIOTCHES.
I SING:: ALL THE TIME.
I WRITE:: for school..i like to write but im lacking inspiration...yeah.
I WIN:: in burping contests :-D
I LOSE:: any game involving physical activity. or video games.
I CONFUSE:: me
I NEED:: you
I SHOULD:: lose weight

[ abc's ]

A is for age: 13
B is for boyfriend: Pete to the r!
C is for career: gosh i have no idea..either writer (for magazines..), history teacher, singer, artist..
D is for dad's name: Ralph
E is for essential item to bring to a party: silly movies.
F is for favorite song at the moment: at zee moment...Call n' Return by Hellogoodbye
G is for girlfriend: none..
H is for hometown: The Hood of Wynnewood. Word up.
I is for instruments you play: ..none..
J is for jam or jelly you like: smuckers? strawberry.
K is for kids: i think i'll have 2
L is for living arrangements: house..with parentals and brother.
M is for mom's name: Ellen
N is for name of your best friend: lotsa people.
O is for overnight hospital stays: once..dont ask. well you can, you'll just be grossed out. major.
P is for phobia[s]: ROLLAR COASTERS, SCARY MOVIES, LOSING PEOPLE, DRUGS AND GUNS.
Q is for quote you like: "Oh how wrong we were to think, that immortality meant never dying" -MCR
R is for relationship that lasted the longest: so far.. ben and i..about one year? almost..i dunno.
S is for sexual position: uhhh
T is for time you wake up: well since its spring break around 10 30/11
U is for unique trait: uh..i have some sexual hair, i would say.
V is for vegetable you love: BEEEEEEEEEEETS SO ORGASMIC. or like sweet potatos/yams (i cant tell the difference
W is for worst habit: jealousy (turning saints into the sea..lol)
X is for x-rays you've had: 1..i broke my finger in first grade like the retard i am (slammed the car door on it..im smooth)
Y is for yummy food you make: CAKE! CAKE CLUB HELL YEAH BECSS<33
Z is for zodiac sign: virgo

havnt done one of these in a while...

2005-03-21T16:13:47Z

For all you emo kids
Created by Alexisxcore and taken 56 times on bzoink!
xx Music
Your favorite band	right now, The Used, Hellogoodbye, The Format, My chemical Romance, Sugarcult, and AFI
Your favortie song	of all time? jeez, i dont know.
Do you want to burn good charlotte? because I do.	i do. that would be a fun get together.
Where do you shop for music?	itunes, borders (even though they never have anything good...), and when i can i shop at used record stoes and such..but yeah.
Do you like mainstream bands?	some.
xx Music :: yes or no?
Senses fail	yes
Alkaline Trio	..no
Alexis on fire	not sure
AFI	yesss
The Used	YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
Finch	no
Underoath	..ish.
Taking Back Sunday	YES
Cake	no.
Hawthorne Heights	YES YES YES
Simple Plan	no.
Silverstein	yes
Blood Brothers	no
Funeral For a friend	..not sure
Death cab for cutie	no
The starting line	YES
Incubus	...kinda.
Muse	YES
Dashboard Confessional	no
The Killers	yesss
Sugarcult	YES
TOOL	no..
APC	..?
Dead Poetic	..not sure
Nirvana	i dont hate them, there jsut extremely overrated. They have some good songs.
The Strokes	no
The white stripes	..not really.
Motion City	YES YES YES
Greenday	yesssssss
Manson	no. no no.
Straylight Run	YES
The Donnas	no.
Brand New	YES YES YSE EYS SYE SEY <--woah..yes spaz. lol.
As I Lay Dying	..no
From Autumn To Ashes	not sure
Avril	HAHAHAHAHHAAHAH NO NO NO NO NO.
Story Of The Year	no
Blink 182	no
Thursday	YESSS
Something Corporate	YESSSS OMFG BEST BANDDD
Atreyu	no
Saves The Day	yes..dont know them that well.
Haste The Day	?
The AAR	?
xx You
Color hair	brown...
peircings	ears
Shoes	none, right now. i have converses and sauconys though.
Wearing	right now? red hot chili peppers shirt and gabbys bm pants
Name Brand	..of the shirt..??? i dunno.
Store	This is embarassing..i got it at Hot Topic...yeah.
Rings	no rings.
nail polish	OOHH ITS REALY PRETTY. its like thsi crimson-purply red with SPARKLES.
make-up	purple liner and black liner..w/ mascara
Boyfriend	PETER!
When you're alone..do you write?	..not really. i draw sometimes. or read.
Where do you spend most of your time?	online. i kno. i need to get out more.
Do you get along with your parents .. siblings?	yeah, i actually love my family. yeah im a loser.
How late do you usually stay up?	...on weeknights like 10 30...on weekends..no limit.
What's your favortie TV show..	THE OC and HOUSE
movie?	Ace Ventura Pet Detective. Brilliant movie.
Channel?	FUSE
Music?	emo, screamo, indie, punk, hardcore, some classic...
thing to do?	be with my friends. or sing. or go to concerts.
place to be?	concerrrts
Person To talk to	Well, i talk to rebecca a lot, so i guess i like to talk to her a lot.
person to yell at	rebecca. lol
quiet place..	my room..or my basement
xx Friends
Closest	dunno..
person you can tell whatever to..	rebecca
loudest	chelsea
wildest	karley lol
slutty-est	umm..no comment.
nervous	carolyn chou. but we love her anyway.
shyest	....hmm..?
emo-est	me.
lonely-est	hmm?
brave-est	gosh i dunno..elis pretty fearless
loser	me.
dork	me.
nerd	me.
smart-ass	BENJAMIN CAPLAN.
bitch	uhhhhhhh
goth	none of us really..i listen to some goth music, but i wouldnt label myself that..
prep	ummmmm...kitch? not really..i dunno.
do you have feelings for a close friend..	well yeah..
have you ever gone out with a close friend?	yeah..
person you've made out with	in my lifetime? Ben and Peter.
random	miller.
uglyest	what kind of question is that? all my friends are sexual and they know it.
Prettyest	hmm..i dont know...like i said your all sexual.
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rosenator @ 2005-03-15T19:49:00

2005-03-16T00:52:02Z

You scored as Tongue Piercing. You're a naughty person aren't you? Being with you is probably lots and lots of fun. You're probably totally pimpin' too. Good for you, good for you.

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Belly Button Piercing

80%

Tongue Piercing

80%

Nose Piercing

80%

Cartilage Piercing

60%

Dirty Piercings

60%

Nipples

60%

Labret Piercing

50%

Earlobe Piercing

40%

Lip Piercing

40%

What Piercing Are You?
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damn straight.

rosenator @ 2005-03-15T15:46:00

2005-03-15T20:58:07Z

I am unable to see taking back sunday/jimmy eat world/format concert. life's unfairness at its best.

BUT..

I am going to see the mars volta i think. its good because, my brother and i both like them (a very rare occasion) and my dad doesnt mind them. I'm very excited, they are truly awesome band. and there not emo. so there.

and i know ben folds is coming in may..

and i really really want to see hellogoodbye, but i dont think i'll have a chaperone to go with. which is smelly, but oh well.

i left my ipod in my locker. again. i guess i dont have to worry about anyone stealing it, being as my music according to most people sucks. well, better for me i guess!!

im very excited for spring break. im not going anywhere, but its gonna be fun just chilling. and sleeping in. and hangin with friends. and making out..I MEAN........................:-P

well im out.

peace.

rosenator @ 2005-03-10T21:25:00

2005-03-11T02:25:46Z

go here if you are in bc applause....

http://www.livejournal.com/users/aaron_nemphos/

it has a notice about mr. steve and how we could see the dude act!

rosenator @ 2005-03-09T18:26:00

2005-03-09T23:29:18Z

Lately I've been thinking so strangely about the clouds and how they seem to slowly fade away, yeah...
Maybe some day we will find a way to disappear
Just me and you silver lining dreams.
Ohh how could I survive without your love..
and the hope you bring.
ohh even when the sky is falling down, I know I have you, and it's all I need.

<3

rosenator @ 2005-03-07T15:23:00

2005-03-07T20:30:29Z

today was a really good day.

I was hyper, and happy and nothing went terribly wrong.

and its practically summer outside, which is ever so enjoyable.

And I have someone who loves me with all of his heart, and I love him just the same. He is incredible, and the best boyfriend anyone could ever ask for. I love you peter. :-D

so yeah. life is pretty good right now.

Oh and i guess i should mention the hoe, i mean rebecca goldring is coming this weekend. Meaning i have to sacrifice MY PRECIOUS TIME to hang w/ her. gosh, im such a good person for doing this. lol jk becs.

We are going to see Hawthorne heights and Sugarcult! so pumped. I shall give a full concert update after the concert. You know you want to read it.

and im out.

rosenator @ 2005-02-28T17:51:00

2005-02-28T22:53:48Z

I'm feeling a little down right now, for some various reasons.

The play is almost over. this is my last show. I'm going to miss it terribly. I mean, I was doing something that I love, with the people that I love...who would want to leave that. I dont even have the comfort of knowing i'll be here next year..because I wont. And there are some people (one person especially) whom I'm going to miss...a lot. And it pains me to think its all over..just like that. I dont want it to end, I dont want to leave this group of incredibly awesome people.

Also, I'm having some issues with myself. I get frustrated easily, and my brother doesnt help. Hes amazing at everything he does musically, bass, guitar, piano, violin..everything. he knows so much about music, and i dont. I'm trying to learn bass, but i get impatient and i dont devote every waking second to it...like my brother does with his instruments. Maybe I should, but its not my top priority..im sorry it just isnt..and I just hate how i suck, but i know that the only way i wont suck is to practice, which i do, but probably not as often as i should and its just difficult being in my brothers shadow. That sounded scarily like that Ashlee Simpson song, so I'd better stop.

I just want someone to hold me.

I'm so lucky.

2005-02-27T04:23:34Z

He looked at me and he said, "You're perfect just the way you are."

rosenator @ 2005-02-24T19:02:00

2005-02-25T00:07:45Z

I think I need to stop shopping at Hot Topic.

I have already been there two times. and each time i have bought something. Mind you, they were just band T shirts, nothing that actually promotes hot topic. But out of all the stores in the king of prussia mall they are pretty mcuh the only one that has good band t shirts. yes they are probably overpriced, and yes I cant beleive im shopping there...but sometimes you have to give in you to sinful wants (and quite possibly needs).

I'm off to go babysit probably the most well behaved children in the world. Its great. They go to bed at 8, and then i sit on my ass and watch tv. and eat there food. Life is good.

peace out girl scouts.

rosenator @ 2005-02-18T11:01:00

2005-02-18T16:08:34Z

last night i bought AP magazine (alternative press); mainly because hawthorne heights was featured and it gave away a drive thru records demo cd with all these crazy amazing bands. I was reading it, and apparently this issue is the 100 bands you should know issue. so im looking through all these bands, getting extremely excited, because new bands are always exciting. I read there profiles, look at there pictures and so on and so forth. Its in incredible how many bands are out there. and its incredible how many people in bands are in other bands and its just like one bigh punk rock family.

I discovered that the guitarist from Something corporate is in another band called firescape, so i rushed to www.purevolume.com to see if they had anything for me to listen to. sure enough, they did. They sound alright, very different from something corporate.

Its a bit overwhelming, knowing there are many great bands out there. My wish list of cds keeps piling and i never know where to begin. Should I get the Muse cd i really want, or try the Action Action one? sigh.

I got the fall out boy cd last night too. they are really a great band. good music, clear sound, awesome lyrics. So yeah. If you dont know them, check them out.

rosenator @ 2005-02-17T18:21:00

2005-02-17T23:23:38Z

today has been the best day i've had in a while.

im so..giddy. I'm scaring myself. I just want to jump around in circles because im so overjoyed!!

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!

oh and i told albert he would get a shout out.
ALBERT!

rosenator @ 2005-02-13T20:36:00

2005-02-14T01:36:28Z

Way to fuck with my heart asshole.

almost feels like a gun...

2005-02-12T01:28:50Z

ok get ready for a hardcore entry.

So, my life basically sucks major cock right now.

I'll make a list. Just for you.

1) Adam. I didnt know him, but i feel for him, his family and his friends. I cant imagine what it would be like to lose a best friend..a brother. I know a couple people who knew him, and I just can't imagine the pain. Rest In Peace Adam.

2) Me and Ben..yeah you know the stories. I just have a lot of emotions right now. A lot. And quite frankly, its really pulling me down.

3) My brother just cant pull himself together and it pisses me off how he literally ruins my parents. He's being extremely selfish, and I hate it.

4) I had no plans tonight. And i just wanted to be with a friend..or something.

5) I feel obese. but thats not old.

So yeah.

I could go into further detail about each problem, but I decided to spare you. Your welcome.

I feel so lost. alone. I have all these things bottled up inside and i just want to scream. I hate this, I hate it all. I have so much anger in me right now, and also a lot of longing. And I have little or no self confidence right now. I feel worthless. I just want this to go away. I wish i didnt care, but i do. I wish i was strong but im not. I wish I was happy. I wish i could just shrug this off, live my life. Not be such a emo ass bitch. I wish I wasnt overtaken by petty jealously.

But wishing is useless..

I didnt want it to mean that much to me.

rosenator @ 2005-02-05T11:19:00

2005-02-05T16:37:36Z

Wow. Live music is the best thing that ever happened to this world.

Last night, I was lucky enough to see Keane, The Redwalls, and The Zutons live. At the Electric factory.

My dad, Sam, and I got there very early, but had to wait a longggg time. However, it paid off because we got SO CLOSE to the stage. Hayley and her two friends came up w/ us too.

So, The Redwalls played first. I had not heard a single thing by them, so I didnt know what to expect. Well, they were fucking amazing. They were made up of four young men, one drummer, two guitarists and one bassist. They were very cute and dressed up very retro/vintage. But could they play? Oh yes they could. They literally could have been plunked into a club in the 70s or 60s and been a stellar hit. There sound was like that of the Who, very classic rock, with a touch of modern rock. One guitarist had some electrifying solos, and both guitarists and the bassist all sang. At one point, the bassist and guitarist switched instruments! The drummer kept an amazing beat, it ran through my whole body. The bassist was also very good and had some interesting lines. They were just incredible, and even my dad liked them!!

The next band was The Zutons. Now, my dad didnt like them and neither did sam. I on the other hand loved them. Alright, the saxaphonist (the only girl in the band) was a bit lame, and played like three notes in each song. But other than that, i raelly liked them. There bass was stron and there guitars had some awesome melodies. The singer was very funny, and had some cool songs. I dont know how to describe there sound, I guess its kinda modern but old school at the same time. They had some cool harmonies with there voices (a lot of them sang). they were i think british..or irish..i dont kno..but they had silly accents. Overall i think they delivered a great live performance and i really liked there music. Screw the saxaphonist.

And then, what we had all been waiting for...KEANE! Wow. they are so fucking good. Before this concert, I was a fan, but not obsessive. After this live performance I am blown away at there talents. The lead singers voice is crisp, melodic and beatiful, never missing a single note. The pianist, full of energy, was wonderful, playing that piano with such grace and style. the drummer was also energetic..but he just kinda hung out back there keeping the songs going. It was truly an experience. I just..wow. It was so good, I'm just speechless! You had to be there.

And we were so close to all of the bands! I could actually see there faces, feel there energy, see the sweat drip down there face. It was like in a dream. no joke. stop laughing at me.

Yeah thats right..I know your jealous ;-D

rosenator @ 2005-02-03T18:32:00

2005-02-03T23:33:08Z

You scored as Angel. You're Angel, Collins' bubbly, cross-dressing boyfriend! You are commonly referred to as female - in fact, no one's quite sure about you at all. You live every day like it's your last and enjoy life!

Angel

75%

Mimi

60%

M

YES! IM A TRANSVESTITE!

bored.

2005-01-29T04:21:50Z

[ CURRENT .. ]
- Current Clothes: sweat pants and t shirt
- Current Mood: awake.
- Current Music: Brothers voice.
- Current Taste: peanuts
- Current Make-up: usual
- Current Hair: messy bun
- Current Smell: i cant smell im muscas-filled.
- Current thing I ought to be doing: sleeping.
- Current Desktop Picture: My Chemical Romance. <3
- Current Favorite Artist: as of now? I know you probably mean music artist, but I'm taking it the other way, like art artist. And my favorite artist is Peter Max. Look him up he is awesome.
- Current Favorite Group: right now MCR
- Current Book: Another Country--James Baldwin
- Current CD in CD Player: Jimmy Eat World i think.
- Current tape in VCR: Austin Powers
- Current Color Of Toenails: none
- Current Refreshment: none
- Current Worry: that i wont be able to kiss ben because he'll be sick and it will be like the week before the show and i cant get sick and ahhh bad cycle. lol. I worry about the stupidest things.

[ LAST .. ]
- You Touched: the keys
- You Talked to: dad
- You Hugged: Mom
- You Instant messaged: um...Rebecca?
- You Yelled At: Brother
- You Kissed: ben<3

[ FAV0RiTE .. ]
- Foods: chocolate. cream cheese. bagels.
- Drink: im really into tea right now.
- Color: I dont kno. I truly dont have a favorite.
- Album: Right now, Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge, My Chemical Romance.
- Shoes: prob my old converse, the ones with the holes. Its something about there worned-out-ness that makes them so special.
- Candy: god. i dont care as long as its chocolate.
- Animal: kittens.
- TV Show: The OC. House.
- Song: i cant pick. I would say a top contender woudl be Globes and Maps-Something Corporate
- Vegetable: broccoli. That stuff rocks.
- Fruit: any kind of melon.
- Cartoon: Hey Arnold, Arthur, Fairly Odd Parents. Good stuff.

[ ARE Y0U .. ]
- Understanding: most of the time.
- Open-minded: Yeah
- Arrogant: I dont think so..am i?
- Insecure: yeah
- Interesting: not particularly.
- Easily Amused: wow. yeah.
- Random: extremely.
- Hungry: no.
- Friendly: yeah
- Smart: in the long run, yes.
- Moody: when aunt flo comes to visit.
- Childish: um, yeah.
- Independent: depends. I hate being alone (i surround myself with people), but I sometimes prefer to work on things like projects alone as to working in groups.
- Healthy: um. eh.
- Emotionally Stable: well.....lol.
- Shy: when i first meet you. Once I start to get comfortable I'm ok.
- Difficult: I dont kno.
- Bored Easily: yeah. I constantly need to be entertained.
- Messy: Ok. Look at my binders. Look at my room. Does that answer your question?
- Thirsty: nope
- Responsible: yeah
- Obsessed: haha i do sometimes.
- Angry: no
- Sad: no
- Happy: in life? yes.
- Hyper: not now.
- Trusting: yeah...
- Talkative: yesss.

[ WH0 D0 Y0U WANT T0 .. ]
- Kill: no one
- Slap: Rebecca. No specific reason. Just pure fun. lol.
- Get High With: I dont get high, thanks. Off of drugs at least.
- Tickle: Ben. He is SO CUTE. dude, i so won all the tickling wars, dont beleive a word he says. haha<3
- Look Like: I dont kno.
- Talk To Offline: Becs
- Talk To Online: anyone. I'm bored as fuck.

HAVE Y0U EVER ..
- Been kissed? yes
- Eaten an entire box of Oreos? wow. that would be heaven.
- Been on stage? si.
- Dumped Someone? not really.
- Gotten in a car accident? yeah. it was really minor though, i was little and i remeber saying to my mom "why are we sitting here?" and she said "Um, honey we got in a car accident!". lol.

[ FAV0RiTE .. ]
-Shampoo? used to be pantene, but it is letting me down. I'm gonna go with loreal vive.
-Toothpaste? whatever my rents buy.
-Soap? mom gets this good shit from crabtree and evelyn
-Room in your house? mine..or the basement :D
-Instrument? bass.

[ EiTHER/0R .. ]
-Coffee or hot chocolate? hot chocolate.
-big or little? depends.
-Lace or satin? hmm.
-New or old? neww baby.
-Tom Cruise or Brad Pitt? Brad. Cruise is into like scientology which is this creepy cult thing so hes deff off my list.
-Vogue or Cosmopolitan? cosmo is fun because all they talk about is sex.
-Jeans or cords? both. i guess jeans though.
-Sweater or sweatshirt? sweatshirt
-T-shirt or tank top? t-shirt
-Skirt or dress? skirt
-Wool or cotton? cotton
-Rose or Lily? rose
-Oldies or pop? oldies
-Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? yess
-Do you have a best friend? no i dont belveive in friends. yes i have a best friend lol.

[ iN THE LAST 24 H0URS, HAVE Y0U .. ]
- Cried? no
- Helped someone? maybe
- Bought something? no
- Gotten sick? yesss
- Gone to the movies? no
- Gone out for dinner? no
- Said "I love you"? yeah!
- Written a real letter? nope
- Moved on? um..sure.
- Talked to an ex? no
- Missed an ex? no
- Talked to someone you have a crush on? yeahh. well not really. i left him a message though.
- Had a serious talk? kinda.
- Missed someone? yeah, Ben and Rebecca :(
- Hugged someone? mommy
- Fought with your parents? no
- Fought with a friend? no

[ D0 Y0U .. ]
- Wear eye shadow? yeah
- Put on a "front"? i dont think i do..
- Have a crush on someone? yeahh!!
- Eat with your mouth open? no
- If you got a tattoo, where would you get it? back. like towards the butt.
- What color is your floor/carpet in your room? grey.
- What was the last CD you bought? Um well i bought three, The Starting Line, Taking Back Sunday and Punk Goes Pop
- How did you spend last summer? at JKCP. <3 great times. And in cali with my sexy hot family.
- When's the last time you showered? in the mornin.
- Are you lonely? now i am.
- Are you happy? Jeez you've asked this question a bagillion times.
- Are you wearing pajamas? ya
- Are you talking to someone online? no. i have no friends.

STAR THE THINGS YOU LIKE
»i like red*
»i like orange*
»i like yellow*
»i like green*
»i like blue*
»i like purple*
»i like grey*
»i like pink*
»i like black*
»i like rainbows
»i like chocolate*
»i like vanilla*
»i like caramel*
»i like coffee
»i like to shop*
»i like rock*
»i like nelly
»i like britney spears
»i like my computer*
»i like boys*
»i like someone*
»i like linkin park
»i like my room*
»i like lots of foods*
»i like brocoli*
»i like vegetables*
»i like lemonade*
»i like school*
»i like all sports--wow major no on that one lol.
»i like soda*
»i like water*
»i like my socks*
»i like my shoes*
»i like my clothes*
»i like to design websites
»i like this survey*

rosenator @ 2005-01-26T11:14:00

2005-01-26T16:27:00Z

Well, being sick sucks the big one.

Yesterday actually wasnt all that terrible, Jin and I hung out. lol. And we watched Pretty in Pink which is a great 80s film.

Today, I have just completed watching Big Fish. It was very good. I was bawling at the end. lol. Tim Burton is an incredible director. Other great movies of his are Batman Returns and Edward Scissorhands. Good stuff.

Also, Ben is sick today as well! So we can talk online n stuff. Its quite cool. <333

The worst thing about this cold of mine is im so full of mucas. Grossed out? I was hoping you would be. hehe.

And I am constantly exhausted, but it is hard to sleep because of my excessive amount of mucas. Ugh. Whatever. I'm hoping to go to school tomorrow, but we'll see.

Now I am going to go and watch more movies/television. I can just feel my brain cells decreasing. Yes.

Peace out Girl Scouts.

-Charr

rosenator @ 2005-01-22T12:19:00

2005-01-22T17:19:57Z

According to the Which Something Corporate Song Are You? Test...

rosenator @ 2005-01-21T22:29:00

2005-01-22T03:35:31Z

Hello.

Sigh. I'm so ready for this year to be over. and its not even february yet. Its not that I'm unhappy in life in any way, its mostly the schoolwork and teachers and crap that i have to put up with. Now, I realize this crap doesnt necessarily go away in highschool-in fact it most likely increases. But I think there is this certain essence about 8th grade, the want to be out of middle school, the want to get on with your life. I'm tired of being middle school. I want out.

I think its the second quarter. Second quarters are never good.

And snow pisses me off. Dont get me wrong snow days rock. But having to stay inside all day doesnt. And i would go sledding but a)no hills b)i would have to be driven to some hills, but parents refuse to drive me (because of snow!) c) its cold. I could make a snowman or snow angels but a) im not in second grade b) i have no one to play with!! lol. So there you have it.

well. im going to bed. Sorry for my rediculous rants.

rosenator @ 2005-01-19T15:49:00

2005-01-19T21:02:57Z

My cat is a flipping loony.

So im talking to various friends online, which as you know involves two things...typing and being able to veiw the screen. My cat, thought it would be just dandy of her to jump up to the desk and block the computer. Now that poses a problem (refer to sentence number 1 if you are an idiot and are lost.). So, I try my hardest to get her down, make hand motions towards the ground, tap on the desk, you know, little things like that. She doesnt get the message. Then for a little she goes off around my desk because she has found something to play with (oh you know..my homework..something important like that). Then, my cat decides to watch me type. I think little of this for i was engaged in some conversation or other. Just then, she pounces on my beaded bracelet. I was given a little shock, and it also disabled my ability to type for that moment. So i pushed her (gently) away. She again, did not get the message. Time after time, she woudl come up and try to eat my bracelets. And block the screen.

And there you have it folks. My cats crazy.

My thoughts.

2005-01-18T02:43:33Z

Its really fun to look through photos and just, relive the memories. You know that at that moment, everything was ok. Takes you away from the stress of your life now. You get caught up in a world of memories and past and old inside jokes.

then you come back to reality.

rosenator @ 2005-01-15T23:53:00

2005-01-16T05:11:14Z

Ok. I actually have something to update about.

So we have this family friend named Eric Casey. hes about 37, and was an old graduate student of my dads. hes very much into free jazz (like my father and brother) and literally spends his days and nights listening to music, buying music and filming his two daschound dogs. He is extremely funny, and very fun to talk to. He can play guitar alright, and he brought his down (he is visiting w/ us).

So my dad, brother and Eric decide to learn how to play this song bye Aimee Mann called "Calling it Quits". Its a great song. Go download it. Anyhoo, with Eric on the guitar, my brother on MY BASS, and my dad on the drums, all they needed was a singer. Thats where i came in. So even though i was dying from a cold, I went down to jam. So my mom decides to document this holy event, because well, we havent really ever gotten through and entire song before. So through a couple of disputes over drum entrances and guitar chords, we get it right. It sounded quite cool, i must say. And my mom filmed it on Erics camera. It was a helluva lot of fun. It was also very comical, given the fact that my dad jokingly is very full of himself w/ his amazing drum talents (which are not bad, if i do say so myself.). Eric, couldnt seem to figure out where his chords came in and my brother was acting like he knew everything. I couldnt hear myself, cuz the intstruments overrode the mic. But all in all, it really rocked.

That same day, the mezochows came over for dinner. For some reason I tend to act very idiotic in the presence of Alyssa Mezochow (Gabbys sister). One of my ditzified moments was when my dad was bringing out this chocolate cake, while singing happy birthday. I stupidly question "what whos birthday is it?". My moms birthday is tomorrow. And i knew it too. It just went way over my head. So everyone laughed at me. Then, I kept asking Alyssa who this person was when she had told me a bagillion times. And there were many other incidents. Ugh.

I happen to have a cold.......THANKS BEN. lol just kidding, I love you <3

Earlier in the day, I learned my Amazing Mayzie dance and my how lucky you are one. Twas quite fun, although I fear my dancing is not quite up to par. Oh well, I'll get there.
So I'm learning my dance right? And Mrs. Wolf casually walks in, and says to me "You are looking extremely thin. Are you ok?" "oh..uh..yeah! Thanks!" I say rather awkwardly and very surprised. "Ok, I guess your just growing..I'm worried you wont fit into your costume!!" Mrs. Wolf replies with a smile. wow. that felt good.

And thats all for now. Wow, can you believe I was capable of actually writing an actual entry. its been what, 3 months? who knows.

Much Love to all. And Ben :-*

-Charlottay.

rosenator @ 2005-01-12T07:15:00

2005-01-12T12:18:36Z

hey. Ive been slacking off on updating. Very sorry for the inconvenience.

yeah. Things have been pretty good for now. I do feel like im gaining weight and its gross and i hate it.

yeah. my new icon is kinda stupid but it makes me happy to look at it cause it just does. lol.

I know that wanst much of an entry.....I"ll update when somthing interesting happens to me.